‘French is totally all about the attitude’.
I told myself this as I dressed for my very first French class, donning my brand name designer skirt (donated to me by my rich cousin who gained quite a bit of weight during her pregnancy) and a red beret tilted ever-so-slightly to the side. I can’t speak any French, but I can damn well look as though I do.
Gazing at my teacher however, took the sophistication out of my sails. “Bienvenue!” she called over the throng of students, gesticulating with all of that European glory. “Welcome to French class!”
Mid-30s, thin as a rake, dressed all in black and oozing a confidence I couldn’t dream of, her eyes followed me as I took my place at the table. I could feel all 95 kgs of me filling up my designer skirt. My cheeks turned scarlet and the beret I had worn for emphasis now felt a little silly. I wilted under her stare. “A new student!” she sang, clapping her hands together with glee. “Why don’t you introduce yourself! En francais!”
‘En francais’. In French. I hadn’t spoken French since my days failing School Cert French in high school. My mind desperately scrambled to remember some phrases from that time. All I could remember seemed limited to ‘I like…’ and some weird stock-phrases about animals and what they like to eat.
Then I remembered what my friend had told me about making it in France. ‘If in doubt, just add a vowel to everything’.
That’s what I planned to do. I slid out of my chair, and found 30 pairs of eyes upon me as I got on my feet. My beret tilted forward a little too far, and I stared back at them, terrified.
“Je suis…”
I looked at her. She smiled an open smile of encouragement, but everything about her was just so intimidating. All I could think about was how she was probably everything I ever wanted to be.
“Bonjour.. je suis Cammy.. J’aime le… books and stuff”
A silence came over the classroom.
“… pardon, Cammy,” the teacher said, after a moment of hesitation. “Can you speak French?”
I froze. Was I in the right class?
“Um.. no?”
“Oh, you see Cammy, this lesson is for… shall we say… the more advanced students. Go down to our reception Cammy, and see if you can sign up for our beginner courses. Maybe if you do, one day you can join us up here! A good goal, no?” she flashed me that winning, European smile.
My cheeks glowed redder. My heart felt like it had skipped a beat.
“S… sorry,” I mumbled, and gathered my things as quickly as I could.
I didn’t go to reception. I didn’t even enquire about the beginner course.
Maybe French is not for me.
GOAL ACHIEVED – Try something new